For Real This Time

Okay, well if you’ve read my last blog you probably understand how much of a basket-case that I am. Does anyone say basket-case anymore? I’m only 18, why am I talking like I’m 50?

On a serious note:

I can’t help but feel like everyone else’s life is coming together, but I can’t even begin to figure out where to start with mine. Just in the past month, I’ve graduated high school, moved houses, and had a complete revelation about life in general.

Then I log into Facebook, I see that some of my friends and family are engaged, getting married, going to school to do awesome things, moving out of their parent’s house, and just becoming more independent.

I can’t seem to figure out what I’m doing or who I am. I’ve never really had an identity crisis before, but I think that this is it. I have an idea of what I want to do, but I don’t know how to go about saying “I just want to write” without sounding completely unmotivated. What do I want to do with the rest of my life?

I’m not very talented when it comes to anything. I’m not very smart, I’m not very good with numbers or memorization. Shoot, sometimes I can’t get myself out of bed before noon. I guess I am pretty unmotivated. I just don’t know what to do.

5 comments

  1. TheCatssMeoww · June 24, 2014

    Stop shooing yourself down. Think about all of the positives.

    • xxamongthefallenxx · June 24, 2014

      That is something that I struggle with, but a change in perspective is probably what I need. Thank you for the encouragement!

      • TheCatssMeoww · June 24, 2014

        I mean just reading your post made me sad I’m sure you’re worth way more than you let yourself take credit for.

  2. kelvinoralph · June 24, 2014

    Its good you have these thoughts now rather dan much later in life.

    And no, you are talented. Maybe you just don’t know it yet.

    Jus focus on the things that make you happy. Write your heart out because there’s one thing I’ve observed is that you’re good with words.

  3. mdarst95 · September 19, 2014

    BULLSHIT!! You are one of the MOST talented and smart people I know.

    -PS I know that’s late but don’t EVER sell yourself short kid. 🙂

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